Teaching Feelings

I know it has been awhile since I have blogged but work has really been busy this year.

This year I am teaching a special education Physical Science class, a honors class, and a repeater class. Needless to say, my day is crazy and when I get home I exhausted.

Today was a terrible day actually. I am the type of teacher that tries to reach every student and honestly believes that student's have a good side to them and they can all learn physical science. Well today they all tested my patience. I feel so bad after I yell at them, but today there was no choice. I have never had such disrespectful students. I came home and felt terrible because I was so mean. After much thought I have decided that I need to get over the fact that I can reach EVERY student and try to teach most of the how to have respect.

As a teacher your goal is to make good relationships with your students and help them get through your class. Since I teach high school I try really hard to teach students that they are all capable of going to college and getting a good job. The hardest part of my job is to see so much potential in certain students, but watching them not use their potential. I feel like a failure because I don't know how to reach these students because I was never like this. It is hard for me to realize that students do not want to work up to their potential.

So.. I am writing this more for me to get my feelings from the day on paper (or computer) but if anyone has any suggestions for how to reach difficult students PLEASE let me know!

Happy "Early" Birthday!!

Friday is my dad's birthday. We are going home this weekend to see our family so I am posting early.

As many of you know I am true daddy's girl. When I was little I always wanted to do EVERYTHING with my dad. He was and still is my hero.

Here are a few neat things about my dad!

* He is a GREAT minister. I love coming home to hear him preach.
* Whenever a boy broke up with me he was always there to make me smile
* When I was little we use to always eat waffles together EVERY morning!
* He taught me how to throw a basketball and baseball ( I was never good)
* He never missed a dance recital, basketball game, softball game, band competition, or piano recital.
* He taught me how to put others first but that you always need to make alittle time for yourself
* He taught me the importance of family and I hope to teach my children the same thing
* He taught me to always try to find the positive in every situation
* Most importantly he taught me how to love and raise my children. My dad is the greatest! :)

I LOVE YOU DAD! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

LOVE,

YOUR LITTLE GIRL

Little Tidbits

* Friday I came home to a clean house! :) Patrick had cleaned the house all day while I was at work! :)

*Friday night Patrick and I went out on a date! We went to eat Yamato's and then to walk around Babies R Us. When we got home we watched the movie 21. I would recommend this to anyone! It was a great movie :)

*I am starting to eat ALOT. I get hungry every hour. It is crazy how much food I ate this weekend.

*Saturday morning I woke up with TONS of energy. I went to the grocery store, did all of our laundry, clean the kitchen, organized my closet, paid bills, and sorted our mail for the last 3 months, all before lunch!

*We went to watch the Carolina game at our friends Katie and Justin's house. It was a great time of fellowship, but not that great of a game.

*Today we didn't get up in time for Sunday School but did make it to preaching and then enjoyed a great lunch with a couple from our Sunday School class. After church we just RELAXED!!

*Please say an extra prayer for my school tonight. I got a phone call this afternoon that one of our teachers passed away this weekend. I do not know the details, but I am sure school is going to be tough tomorrow.

Hope everyone had a great weekend! I am starting to feel better (sometimes). I still have my moments. My test results for my thyroid test have not come back so I am still waiting to find out that.

12 Week Update!

Patrick and I went for the 12 week ultrasound today. I have to admit before we got there I was very nervous. This is the crucial ultrasound in my mind. Until this day I knew I was pregnant but I would not let myself buy anything or really BELIEVE it yet.

When the ultrasound popped up the baby was not moving. My heart dropped, I was so nervous because the technician was not talking. She then let us hear the heartbeat and I was so happy! It was perfect at 162 bpm. Patrick said he wanted to tape it and hear it EVERYDAY!

The baby was still not moving so I was still alittle nervous so I asked if it should be moving. She told me that if I am around loud children all day that it was probably sleeping because it was quiet. Well my classes are terrible this year, so I am sure it was just as happy as I was to hear quiet! She tried her hardest to get the peanut to move but it only moved it's head. It looked like it was saying, " STOP MESSING WITH ME". The technician joked and said it was stubborn. I said " Yea, Just like it's dad"! :)

The whole time the baby was holding it's hands like it was praying! HOW SWEET!! The picture looks like it is making a "C". Patrick said this was for CAROLINA! :)

The only bad thing was they had to draw blood again because my thyroid level is low and they want to test this again. If it comes back low again they will give me some medicine and the doctor said that this could be one reason I have been so nauseated.

We find out the sex of the baby on October 27th and we are so happy!

It has finally hit me that we are having a baby in 6 months! WOW!! I am so excited and can't wait to start looking pregnant!

Thank you for all your prayers!

Things are Looking Up...

Well today I woke up and could not move I was so nauseated, so I thought I would be ok if I could just sleep for alittle while longer, so I called a sub for the first half of the day. I then decided it was time to call the doctor for some medicine.

I went back to sleep until around 9:30 and woke up and did not feel any better. I decided that I should just take a whole day so I didn't go back to work. I did go pick up my medicine and I could not believe how much better I felt.

I am still have some nauseated moments, but it is not as bad. I can take the pills every 8 hours and I plan to do that to make sure that I am not sick.

Things are beginning to look up! :) Another good thing is our next ultrasound is on Wed. I am so excited and trying to not get nervous like last time, but then it is always in my head! :)

Thank you so much for your prayers! They are working!

My Mom is the Greatest

Yesterday my mom arrived around 5:00 and immediately started cleaning my house! HOW WONDERFUL!! She cleaned and did all of our laundry.

Not only did she take care of the house, but she took care of me! Anything I needed she got for me! It was so great to have my mom here to help make me feel better. There is something about wanting your mom when you are sick.

THANKS MOM FOR EVERYTHING!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!

* I am feeling alittle better but still have a bad stomachache and am VERY weak. I think the baby is taking all the energy I have. Please pray that I can make it through the day tomorrow.*

PLEASE PRAY!!!

Please say an extra prayer for me. I usually don't ask people to do this but I am still sick like a dog. I called the doctor last night and she said I the 36 hour stomach bug, but this has lasted longer that 36 hours.

I am very worried because I cannot keep any liquids or food down so I have lost ALOT of weight. Besides being worried about the baby, I am worried I will never get better.

Also please pray for Patrick. He has been wonderful,but I know he wanted to spend the weekend together. My mom is coming down to give him a break. I am sure he needs it!

Thanks so much!

The Joys of Teaching.....

The joys of teaching are that if your students are sick you are probably going to get sick as well. This past week I have had many students out sick and my assistant has been out for 3 days.
Yesterday I woke up not feeling well but just figured it was the normal pregnancy sickness. Last night I felt like I had the flu and was so achy and cold. I took my temperature and had a slight fever and my stomach hurt so bad.
This morning I woke up and did not feel any better so I decided to stay home. I called the nurse and she said that I could only take tylonol and drink TONS of water. So I am laying in the bed, BORED TO DEATH, trying to feel better.

I am going to go buy Lysol for my classroom this weekend :)

Thursday Thirteen

Here are thirteen reasons it has been a week since I posted:

1. Our friends, Adam and Heather, had a beautiful girl last Tuesday. I was so excited to finally meet her! Here are pictures of beautiful Madeline.

2. Patrick and I went home this past weekend to visit my Poppa. Please pray for him and my family. He is still in the hospital and my dad and mom are very tired and stressed.

3. Saturday we went to the park with my family. You can see pictures on my sister's blog.

4. We had the Laney's over to Patrick's parents house to swim this past weekend.

5. Sunday my mom cooked a great lunch for us. She made a whole crockpot of macaroni and cheese! :)

6. Monday night we enjoyed a great dinner with Patrick's parents! Thanks Alice for the great food!

7. I have woken up every day feeling terrible and have come home everyday feeling terrible! I am so happy that I will be 12 weeks on Sat. and hope that the sickness goes away SOON! I have another doctor's appointment this week so I hope to get some medicine.

8. Tuesday night Patrick and I both did not feel well so we both went to bed at 8:30.

9. I am teaching a Special Ed. Physical Science class and a repeater Physical class this year so I have been at school everyday until 5:00 to try and prepare. I have only been teaching 3 years but this is so far the toughest year I have had. The classes are not great and the students are mean and not motivated. Please pray that things get better!

10. Last Thursday we watched Carolina beat NC State and tonight we are watching and praying that Carolina beats Vanderbilt!

11. I have been trying to find a futon for sale that is not too expensive on craiglist. If anyone knows anyone who is selling a futon PLEASE let me know! We need one! :)

12. Wednesday night when I usually get home class, there are youth at our house to talk to Patrick and I. We have really enjoyed getting to know the youth better! As much as I talk about how I hate work, I really do enjoy being around teenagers all day! They are so unique and interesting!

13. Last but not least, I FINALLY COMPLETED MY MASTERS! Wednesday night was my last night so I have been getting all the final projects completed and trying not stress over my big thesis! It feels so good to finally be done after 15 months of hard work! It feels weird to say that I have a Master's degree! I can't wait to walk in December at graduation!